Darkness, Love, Alone, Heart, and Life Darkness
Hopelessly lost in the Darkness
Surrounded by Nothingness
Searching for a flicker of light,
I can't stop Falling, I can't stop the suffering
Darkening of the new day,
Grabbing on to my reflection
There is lonliness,
without a trace of happiness
Who can this be, who have i become,
Trying to remember who I am
I only fall deeper into the abyss
Where nothing exists... a place only for me..
in this eternity where my soul lingers
Will there be hope? will there be light?
the only thing i can be certain of,
in this suffocating Despair
Is that I am nothing, I do not matter
With no one to comfort me, I seek peace in the Chaos
only to find that it gets worse, but i can't stop..
For once I stop, that's when everything will fall apart...
My soul, sanity, Greed, pain, envy, suffering,
and memories of happiness hidden deep inside..
To find that which is something out of nothingness
To create everything from nothingness
That is why i go on that is why i'm here..
I take a look inside again only to fall to my knees
Seeing human's true nature I begin to fall apart..
Losing my shape, losing my mind, Crumbling,
From the Blood, Pressure, sins, uncontrollable hate..
There is only darkness, there is no hope...
As I begin to realize my mind calms
into a tranquil depression,
No pain, no suffering, no falling
Just frozen in time, I become free
Only to realize..
There is no freedom from the neverending Darkness...
Love
What is love?
Is it in a bottle?
Is it an Enjoyable experience?
or is it infatuation?
I wonder....
is it true?
that love can heal the wounds in your heart?
then is it a panacea?
if, then.... is it in a bottle?
I wonder...
is It true?
that sex is making love?
then is a baby, love?
or, is it an enjoyable experience?
I wonder...
is it true?
that love is liking someone too much to call it like?
is it really indescribable?
or, is it infatuation?
This love that people say...
the mysterious word that I find ficticious...
yet, I wish to believe...
that I sometimes think would be painful....
but, wonderful....
that I can't understand no matter what.......
is the only thing I seem to long for.....
Alone
All alone in the darkness
Drowning in Lonliness
Searching for a light of happiness
I can't go on I can't hold on
Living in the darkness of hopelessness
Feeling so helpless lost in the emptiness
holding on to strain of hope
I can't hold on I can't hang on
If only someone knew
I could be something new
Something with life, love,and happiness
Out of depression, pain, and lifelessness
Heart
Filled with pain
My heart was dead
Surrounded by sorrow
my heart was hollow
You came to me
My heart had hope
I loved you
my heart raced
Pressure built up
My heart couldn't take it
Suffocating from your beauty
My heart knew joy
but now that your gone
I'm left for the dead
Life
Who do I love?
Will I ever know?
My mind is a Chaos
Will anything give me peace?
Do I have a future? or is it pitch black?
Does it have meaning? or is it just meaningless?
My mind is confused, stirred
in a chaotic game called life
Will I ever find my true love? or will I be lonely forever?
Will I still have friends that I do now?
or will they be gone? hate me? or forget?
My mind seems to be a puzzle that will never be complete
My mind,future, and soul
Do they even exist? are they even real?
Is there such thing as a true love?
People say I'm smart,talented,"gifted"
I don't think so, For if I was Why am I wasting them?
I'm just an idiot lost in the Road of life
If I am what they say I'll find my way to the end of the Road
But when I reach it will my questions be answered?
